Это - мое спокойствие!

2009-04-04T02:24:00.001+08:00

; aleeloulalei.livejournal.com

<3

2009-04-03T14:22:00.002+08:00

& i miss you sis.

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2009-04-02T21:17:00.001+08:00

;BATAM

-by hand & by machine.

-hectic dayyy, real exhausted.

2009-04-01T14:25:00.000+08:00

;April Fools :]

<3

2009-04-01T04:22:00.001+08:00

;Screwed up my presentation :]]]]

then went to meet sab at parkwayy, it was awesome! we talked & talked,
& talked, & talked & talked, hahaha time passed so fast mann.
it was great catching up all times, two idiots sitting at Coffee Bean
laughing their asses off, hahaha. it was fantastic.

<3

2009-03-31T19:54:00.001+08:00

;fuckyou

<3

2009-03-31T04:48:00.002+08:00

;*cries* still awake doing presentationnnn. this is not fun at all.
hand sore, head pain, stomach feels funny funny.
*yyyaaaaaaaawwwwwwwwwwnnnnnnnnnn

ah, its 1:49pm in California now, sis is starting her first class
in ten minutes time. hah hopefully she have fun in class, & doesnt
screw anything up! hhahaha <3 i miss you sis.

my couch is tempting me to snore.

<3

2009-03-30T15:37:00.002+08:00

When the rain
Is blowing in your face
And the whole world
Is on your case
I could offer you
A warm embrace
To make you feel my love

When the evening shadows
And the stars appear
And there is no one there
To dry your tears
I could hold you
For a million years
To make you feel my love

I know you
Haven't made
Your mind up yet
But I would never
Do you wrong
I've known it
From the moment
That we met
No doubt in my mind
Where you belong

I'd go hungry
I'd go black and blue
I'd go crawling
Down the avenue
No, there's nothing
That I wouldn't do
To make you feel my love

The storms are raging
On the rolling sea
And on the highway of regret
Though winds of change
Are throwing wild and free
You ain't seen nothing
Like me yet

I could make you happy
Make your dreams come true
Nothing that I wouldn't do
Go to the ends
Of the Earth for you
To make you feel my love

<3

2009-03-30T14:39:00.002+08:00

;ahhh oh my fucking gawd i just cant put my mind into my work.
im so blooday distracted, & my minds keeps running away.
it only stays in my work for less than 10secs, literally.

shitzzz i need my drive back baby.

<3

2009-03-30T11:54:00.001+08:00

;its been bout 2 years since ive held a mechanical pencil.

<3

2009-03-28T10:57:00.002+08:00

;Just found an empty Snapple bottle in my grandfather's room in
his office, & so i picked it up, curiously wanna see what the fact is.

"Real Fact" #69

Caller ID is illegal in California

Get all the "Real Facts" at snapple.com

hmm i didnt know thaaat!

<3

2009-03-27T11:39:00.003+08:00

;Pomona, California

Pomona is the 5th largest city in Los Angeles County (after Los Angeles, Long Beach, Glendale, and Santa Clarita). As of the 2000 census, the city population was 149,473. In 2005, its population was estimated as 160,815.

Pomona is the location of California State Polytechnic University, Pomona (Cal Poly Pomona). This university was established on the site of breakfast cereal magnate W.K. Kellogg's ranch located on the city's western corner. The university has over 21,000 students and cover an area of over 1,437 acres (5.82 km²) which makes it the second largest land-holding university in the California State University system, and is known for its engineering and architecturalprograms which are very selective and nationally ranked. & this is where my sister is studying.

There are three styles of residence halls on the Cal Poly Pomona campus. The first to be built are the six residential halls located on University Drive. Phase I of the construction of those halls are four red-brick halls named Alamitos, Aliso, Encinitas, and Montecito and provide room for 212 students each. The remaining two were part of Phase II of the construction project and are named Cedritos and Palmitas and have room to accommodate 185 students each. In contrast to the residential halls, the University Village offers a different style of living as it provides apartments rather than just dormitories to its students. The Village has enough room to accommodate up to 1,300 students.
(& the village, this is where sis is living in, kinda pathetic though, HAHAHA)

hah i did a search due to curiosity & maybe if i get to fly there soon & at least id know where shes studying at :]

The California State University (CSU) is one of three public higher education systems in the state of California, the other two being the University of California system and the California Community College system. It is incorporated as The Trustees of the California State University. The California State University system headquarters are at 401 Golden Shore in Downtown Long Beach.

The CSU system is composed of 23 campuses and has over 417,112 students supported by 47,000 faculty members and staff. It is the largest university system in the United States. oooooooooh

interesting.

okay back to doing tape layouts :[
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2009-03-26T21:14:00.002+08:00

;no sleep last night again, rushing off ccs response notebook.
one done! moreeeee shitzzz to go :[
okayy gon sleep my ass off now.
sigh then gonna have to wake up & do work.

nights.
<3

2009-03-25T02:24:00.001+08:00

<3

;hee i cant count the timings so i'll need this
on my dashboard! :]]]

<3
IMYA

2009-03-24T23:34:00.000+08:00

;TWENTY NINE MORE DAYS.

2009-03-24T09:43:00.002+08:00

;well, sent sis off at the airport already. she's on the plane right now
& she sent me a message saying the guy sitting beside her is fucking
hot & he's in his late 20s & is a George Clooney lookalike!!! DAAAAMMMN

thats so not fair, hopefully i could get an early plane to head over
to visit her & when i do so, i hope a super duper hot guy sits beside
me too, & in his EARLY 20s, heehee!

Anyways, sis do takecare & have a safe flight. Take more photos yupp.
Remember youre there to study, not shop! have funnnn <333

back to work, gon head to school later, oh shit please dont rain on me.

<3

2009-03-23T22:04:00.003+08:00

;didnt sleep last night, was uberly lethargic after school so came
home & took a nap for 6hours, felt goood. & HAH sis fetched me home!

well yeah, her flight was supposed to be at 9:55am in the morning,
but got Re-timed to 1pm in the afternoon, so she went into the
transit & had her free breakfast worth of 15bucks, hah & then when she
was gon check into the plane at bout 1130am, they announced & said
flight Re-timed again to 12:30AM tonight!

So my sis changed her flight to tmr morning, 9:55am again.
aiyahhh so early in the morning, sigh. & all her friends made a wasted
trip to the airport to send her off & mom wasted her tears! hahahah

& we found out that plane re-timed was due to deadly plane crash in
Narita where my sis was gon transit there. Its a FedEx Cargo Plane
that crashed & burst into flames at Narita Airport.
Both Pilot & Co-Pilot were killed :[

anyhows, school was pretty okay, im glad my hard work paid off :]
i'll have to do harder & achieve a good grade for this big project!
okayy start workkkkkkkkkk!

http://news.yahoo.com/s/nm/20090322/wl_nm/us_japan_plane

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2009-03-23T02:54:00.004+08:00

;tireddd tiredd, only slept for 4hours last night. oh well,
its 2:54am now, in about 4 hours time, we've gotta leave home &
head to the airport, where sis will take off in 2hours for an
18 hours flight to California, LA. sighh oh well, its only
gon be three months but im gon miss her tons, loads.

we're so close that it feels funny even without seeing each
other for a few days, & hah there was once where we got into
a fight & didnt talk for a week. That was a tough week man,
hahaha but we ended up talking & laughing a week later.

Im gon miss you so much, sis. Do takecare of yourself when
youre there, & remember to always go online so we can
video call each other!

& then i'll have freaking school at 11am. ahhh think about school
kills all my energy cells, like immediately. Gotta rush rush rush,
buck up to finish all my work by 30days!!!! GLTM.

<3

2009-03-22T05:44:00.003+08:00

;slept for 7hours since 8am yesterdayy :[
sigh still same ol' sleepless nights.
my sleeping timing are seriously fucking screwed up mann,
& geez it sucks, hee. taking naps in the weird day timings &
being up all night. I've still got countless assignments to
finish up, oh shit me.

Countdown..
THIRTY ONE FUCKING DAYS TO ASSESSMENT.
&
ONE FREAKING DAY TO SIS LEAVING!! :[

<3

2009-03-21T23:25:00.001+08:00

;went to Popular earlier to buy tapes for specialism project
& holyy craaaap, spent 97bucks, on tapes, heee so crazy.

<3

2009-03-20T21:42:00.000+08:00

2009-03-19T04:14:00.003+08:00

;Finally went to sent off graciebaby's stuff todayyy
cost a few hundreds just to send her boxes, geez.
then went to cut my hair & which i dozed off at the salon
while waiting for my sis. heeheee :]

& now, four fourteen am, still up doing specialism typo thumbnails.
this suck balls, im so fucking tired. & tmr's gon be a super long
day, from 9am to 6pm, fuck you photography.

ahhh i only slept for 3hours this morning, now im only left with
4hours of sleep, pfft sucks! hopefully the lecturers gon be nice
later, if not, i'll just die dude.

i think imma head to bed soon, goodnightss

<3

2009-03-18T02:09:00.003+08:00

;Fight club, fucking thrilling intense movie i swear.
its such an awesome film, & acted out by incredible actors.
I remembered someone once told me Fight Club's a boring
movie, that person must be insane.
Love the twist.
& i didnt realized the movie was bout 2hours+
-really a must-watch.

Anyways, if you watched it, check this web out.
The link is hilarious, but pretty interesting.

http://metaphilm.com/philm.php?id=29_0_2_0

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2009-03-17T20:17:00.004+08:00

;hah poh heng just told me bout this website called failblog
where it shows all the failure moments or shit like that.
so i went to check it out..

hahahah nice one.

-Theres this one video on the web titled "TIRE WIN"
hah i loved that one :]
go check it out.

okayy fuck, gotta do work.

<3

2009-03-16T23:10:00.002+08:00

;First lesson of specialism class today. At least i've got
Namah & Raj to be in the same class as me, everyone's
separated, which sucks. I swear while writing the lecturer's
name down i wanna laugh so badly, Suang Suang. im not
being mean, im sorryy but seriously, its suang suang?

Slept for 3 hours in the afternoon today, & 2 hours
last night, im totally dead tired man. Gotta try to
finish up the work one by one! & as flamingo said so,
gotta stop doing on research & kick up speed on the
assignments itself, sigh but research is sooo fun! :]

okay, just watched CMIYC, most prolly i'll choose this
movie? sigh i cant make up my mind, guess i'll catch
a glimpse of the other few more movies too first, ttyl.

<3

2009-03-15T03:48:00.000+08:00

;black hair?

<3

2009-03-14T11:47:00.002+08:00

"good morning starshine, the earth says hello!"

;Okayyy so hello earth, today's gonna be a tiring day. :[ i didnt sleep at all last night,
& now, im fucking tired but mom wont let me sleep at all today cause she wants me
to get my sleep timings back on track. pfft "i'll use toothpicks to open up your eyes"
hahah yeah if she does so, i'll run away man!

so okayy, its 11:49am now, but im so tired, it actually still feels like 6am or so,
i dont feel the afternoon coming at all, oh well. im gon eat curry fish head with
grandparents noww, hopefully that'll perk me up.

<3

2009-03-13T23:43:00.000+08:00

Friday the 13thhh -

;COW, beeling wasnt even bothered on looking at my other works.
all she wanted to see was my final Poetry Collection stuff, hee but
i didnt even do no shit bout that, sigh waste my time on going to see
her, but oh well, two down, more to go!!

She's really encouraging, i love her, i still dont get why so many others
dont like her, hmm i think shes an okay lecturer,. Anyways today's
Friday the 13th, i heard this year there'll be many Friday 13ths. WOW
hahahah but it aint even anything man. Doesnt affect me in anyway.

I came home from school & slept for whole 5hours. Felt good :]
but still beri beri tired. went to grans for dinner. Grandma made some
cherry drink for me, to help reduce the swelling of my eye. WOAHHHH
i swear its so fucking sweet, my head nearly exploded. ahhh its so
difficult to drink. I still think it taste exactly like the Skittles Cherry one.
but eating the sweets is a whole lot nicer than drinking it, pfft.

aiyah, grandma's love, tsk tskkk hahaha still have to force myself to
drink it :[[ okayy back to worKKKKKKKKKKKKK.

"WAHHHH FUCK I CANT DRINK IT!" unbearable to the core.

-oh & mel, you didnt call dude.

2009-03-13T00:24:00.001+08:00

;lciaia edens ot oesl egthiw.

2009-03-12T22:49:00.002+08:00

;This week had been real tiring, hardly had any sleep.
Well at least Illustrator is over now, one less thing to worryy.
However still gotta redo the final presentation, sighh! :[

Tomorrow's last evaluation for 2D, gotta rush now & try
to finish as much as i can! Hopefully i can squeeze a few hours of
sleep again :] & my eye's still swollen, gotta continue having an
ice pack on it, & its annoying how irritated it is now, super itchy.

& i cant scratch it either! Why of all times must i have a swollen
eye now ahhhhhh, ASSESSMENT, I WANNA GET YOU OVER
& DONE WITH!

<3

2009-03-07T02:41:00.003+08:00

;WOW its been ages since ive came back to this page.
Anyways, today i headed to AMK MRT, prolly my first
time that ive ever been inside the mrt, & little did i know
that place brought back memories.

A year ago, during new year's, we were all there together
after the countdown & we had no where else to go, so took
the last train to AMK MRT & chilled outside the closed station,
outside Cheers. Wooooh i missed those times. hahaha i can still
remember all us laughing & just chilling out there, waiting for
Kansie or somewhat either. & then we took separate cabs to
Starbucks at Liat Towers. Times, those times. Miss those memories :]
& i miss all you guys loads. Hope you're all doing prettyyy fine!

Cheers, [HAHAHAH CHEERS, okayy lame ass shit]
love <3

-singapore zoo with brotherrr

;my favourites - Zebras, Orang Utans,
& the Penguinss :]

pretty sweet, just realized i got a mosquito bite on my cheek.
DAMN YOU ZOO
`

2009-02-14T01:40:00.003+08:00

HAPPPYYY
VALENTINES
to everyone
&
especially my loved ones <3

much love, alee

-this very night, last year, i was at esplanade with my bf & my bf.
this year 2009 , its completely different, they're both far away from me,
but they'll be in heart, forever. <3
i hope this very day will be great for both yall

2009-02-13T10:58:00.002+08:00

;VALKYRIE -great show id say, cool story.
but hee, okayy yes i did alrights! i fell asleep,
& like totally i mean, BLACKOUT, for like a few
seconds, hahaha well that part was boringg!

& yes i think most of you have guessed it,
after the show & till now, i have no idea nor
do i actually totally understand the entire movie :l

~

2009-02-05T10:03:00.002+08:00

;RISE & SHINE TO A
BADLY SWOLLEN EYE.

holyy crap :[

~

2009-02-02T04:24:00.003+08:00

;My fortune cookie just said
"You are likely to meet your lifetime
partner if you are single"

ERRRRRRMMM ooooookkaaaaaaaaayy.
hmm, interestingg

im so so fucking tired, 5hours to school.
can i skip lecture? heehee!!! :]]]
ZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzz

2009-01-20T02:28:00.000+08:00

Maybe I`m wrong, you decide
Should of been strong, yeah I lied
Nobody gets me like...you

Couldn`t keep hold of you then
How could I know what you meant
There was nothing to compare to

There`s a mountain between us
But there`s one thing I`m sure of
That I now how I feel about you

Can we bring yesterday back around?
Cause I know how I feel about you now
I was dumb, I was wrong, I let you down
But I know how I feel about you now

All that it takes, one more chance
Don`t let our last kiss be our last
I`m out of my mind, just to show you

I know everything changes
I don`t care where it takes us
Cause I know how I feel about you

~

2009-01-18T02:29:00.001+08:00

;MURALS MURALS IS FINALLY OVERRRR

the past three days have been a fucking tiring weekend.
heading to school at 9am in the morning, staying till bout 6pm
or so, finishing up painting & whatever. & finally its over.

hahaha open house no more. very happy with our final work.
i think its much much a very good unexpected piece of art.
for a last minute group like us, & a never combined, nor
proper group. well glad everything turned out well.

goodjob guys, well done!
we did it :] & we;re proud of our DINOCTOPUS!!!
go check it out people, lasalle college of the arts.

GOOD NIGHTS i need fucking sleep alrights.
& you, i hope youre doing well okayy <3

~

2008-12-25T04:27:00.001+08:00

;MEERRRYYY CHRISTMAS
TO EVERYONE YUPPP :]

i miss christmas with all of you.

2008-12-25T04:16:00.002+08:00

;okayy, this is quite a funny & surprising post.
well about, let say 3 or 4nights ago? i remember
sleeping, & then felt like a "pop" in my ear, but i was so
damn tired i went back to sleep. & so the next day,
i felt really uncomfortable in my ear, & it really hurts
when i try to yawn, or burp or try to "blow" my ear?

you know like the pressure you get sitting planes then
you gotta "pop" your ears? yeah i tried doing that
thinking my ears may hurt due to like some pressure or
something but it hurts when i try to "pop" it. so i tried
using a cotton bud & dig my ear, maybe its just some dirt
or something but no, felt really uncomfortable. So i got
really frustrated & scared cause i can even hear my heartbeat
in my ear when i sleep. So the following day, my sis accompanied
me to the doctor. Doc used some ear thingy with a build in torch
& looked in my ear & i got really surprised when she asked me
"did you put something in your ear?" , im like "whaaaaat?, no!"

then she asked "or did you lose a earring?" & im like, WAITTT
A MINUTE, I LOST MY EAR STUD LAST NIGHT. & so,
conclusion, youd never believe it, hahahah my ear stud fell
INTO MY EAR!! goodness gracious, cause the doc said when
shining the torch she could see like some metal thing inside,
reflecting the light, so yupp. & then worst, as she was like a temp
doc at the clinic, she had to ask the nurse outside if theres any
instruments to get something out from the ear & then after searching
the drawers, they found it, gosh i bet it aint even clean!!! & so she
tried using it to grab my earring out but know what, the stupid ear
thingy went out of batt so there aint no more light. i was WTF??

So she found a normal torch & after adjusting everything,
she asked my sis to hold the torch for her, tilted down my
head a lil, then lowered her glasses, & inserted the instrument
into my ear to retrieve my ear stud, thank gawd it fell in, stud
first, & not the sharp part first or id be deaf by now dudee!
honestly, fucking scary experience man, & after that i threw the
ear stud away & the doctor asked me, "huh you threw it away?,
arent you gonna put it back?" i was like NOOOO?!!!, cause she
saw that my first ear hole had no earring, but HELLO? THAT
FREAKING EAR STUD FELL INSIDE MY EAR MAN, I AINT
GONNA USE IT BACK, NUTS.

:]

2008-12-16T22:47:00.003+08:00

;I was playing my Ds in the car when i suddenly
recall the times when i used to work at Great World
& how youd be at Starbucks & we would use Pictochat
on the Ds & chat together, hah those memories, i'd
only think back at them, & smile at the happy memories.

I hope youre doing great now, havent seen you in ages,
nor heard from you but heard youre okay, so, alrights.

My tattoo itches like a motherfucker, i swear,
aint fucking cool, no. but thank gawd i have spaces
in between my tattoo so i can have a lil scratch
here & there! :]

-

2008-12-16T01:17:00.002+08:00

;NICK & NORAH'S INFINITE PLAYLIST
is so so awesome, so cute & & niceee :]

I think its so much better than Juno even
though its like from the same production
company or something but the storyline
is so much more interesting. Its like you can
sleep in Juno, but in this, no wayy, & there
are actually parts where you laugh because
its so damn funny & not for the sake of laughing.

& gosh, BLOT, i mean BOLT - whoops!
well i guess most prolly cause i was tired too,
but the show was soooo boring, i mean its
cute, its funny at some points but i kinda think
its a waste of ten bucks on it mann.

I'd confirm be watching N&N for more than once!
& loads loads more movies on the wayy, its like
movie season right now, loads of awesome cool
interesting new movies, yippeeee! :]

-my tattoos's starting to itch after what, three days.
oh gosh its so uncomfortable, especially standing
up after sitting down for some time or sth like that.
hopefully it'll start peeling soon enough & heal fast.

whatever it is, i love love it.
definitely more, SHHHH!

2008-12-12T23:58:00.003+08:00

;finallyy!!! I did my very first tattoo.
an ambigram of my name, which can
be read both ways upside down :]
hahah & honestly i'd be lying i were to
tell you "oh nahhh IT DIDNT HURT AT ALL!!"

hahaha seriously, it huuuurts, especially the
middle part of it, superr sensitive mann.
but id sayy, cool experience~ heehee

2008-12-10T00:55:00.001+08:00

;I need a guy to ride, ride, ride
I need a guy to make my pie?
I need a guy who's mine oh mine
I need a guy in my life
I need a guy to ride, ride, ride
I need a guy to be my ...
Nobody else cuz he's all mine
I need a guy in my life.. :]

2008-12-09T00:29:00.005+08:00

just got back from
;SRI LANKA

-it was an awesome experience, other than the
dirty eeeky toilets, & some freaky places,
the rest was cool. The elephant ridings, horse
ridings, rock climbing (literally), water rafting.

nice getaway trip. tried loads of first time stuff.
& learn loads of knowledgeable interesting
facts & stuff, daaaamn cool :]

overall, REALLY COOL TRIPP

2008-12-02T23:04:00.002+08:00

GRACE KIM, IM GONNA MISS YOU FUCKLOADS, BABYGIRL
PLEASE TAKECARE OF YOURSELF ALRIGHTS>
PLAY HARD & STUDY HARD TOO.

YOULL ALWAYS BE IN MY HEART :]


Spending all my nights
All my money going out on the town
Doing anything just to get you off of my mind
But when the morning comes
I'm right back where I started again
Trying to forget you is just a waste of time

Baby come back, any kind of fool could see
There was something in everything about you
Baby come back, you can blame it all on me
I was wrong, and I just can't live without you

All day long, wearing a mask of false bravado
Trying to keep up the smile that hides a tear
But as the sun goes down
I get that empty feeling again
How I wish to God that you were here

Baby come back, any kind of fool could see
There was something in everything about you
Baby come back, you can blame it all on me
I was wrong, and I just can't live without you

Now that I put it all together
Give me the chance to make you see
Have you used up all the love in your heart
Nothing left for me
Ain't there nothing left for me

Baby come back, any kind of fool could see
There was something in everything about you
Baby come back, listen, you can blame it all on me
I was wrong, and I just can't live without you

I was wrong, and I just can't live

2008-11-25T00:05:00.002+08:00

;its 12:05am, 25th November '08.

you've finally turned nineteen. oh well, how time flies.
a year ago, we just recently got together & everything
was so special. If im not wrong, i didnt even got you
anything for your last 18th birthday, im sorryyy.
-maybe just a birthday kiss.

I remember telling myself, after getting you the
tattoo machine for our 2nd month, i was gonna get
you the whole set of tattoo inks, needles, & whatever
shit etc. for your birthday. hahh but oh well, we even
hardly meet no more, i even wonder if you do remember
this friend of yours here! but whatever it is, i just wanna
wish you.. HAPPPPYYY BIRTHDAYY, me special someone.

Like a cherry tree bloomed
I can feel the fragrance around
A face full of energy and life
always radiating happiness
with contagious grin
beaming from within

I salute your unconquerable spirit
and persistent determination
I admire in you
the internal strength and wisdom
I treasure your uniqueness
the caring heart and adorable smile

At times, I wonder how would I say
how much you mean to me
and how much you have given me
the support, encouragement
With each additional candle on the cake
I contemplate once again
how privileged I've been
to have you in my life
Thank you my dearest
for making my life brighter and sweet
you are a gift of tranquility in my life

It's your birthday and I know,
you must be feeling happy today
oh well,
I may be far from you
thousands of miles away
from your birthday cake
but, close your eyes and look
deep down your feelings
I am there clapping
singing your birthday song
holding you in embrace
dancing with shear joy
so,
don't ever think of my absence
I'm there with you
at every breath of life
Happy Birthday, sweetheart.

2008-11-23T06:55:00.001+08:00

2008-11-20T08:18:00.002+08:00

;2D Review on fridaaayy, goodness.
school is such a killer! :[ i've gotta rush
like a mad ass man, dont wanna fail.

final, final, what to do!

sighhh i wanna get this over & done with.
get wait to get my <3

-

2008-11-20T08:16:00.003+08:00

Reborn and shivering
Spat out on new terrain
Unsure, unkind, insane
This faint and shaken hour

Day one, day one
Start over again
Step one, step one
I'm barely making sense
For now I'm faking it
'Til I'm psuedo-making it
From scratch, begin again
But this time I as "I"
And not as "we"

Gun-shy and shivering
Tear it without a hand
Feign brave but still intent
Little and hardly here

~

Eyes wet,
Toward wide open freight
If God is taking bias,
I pray he wants to lose

Day one, day one
Start over again
Step one, step one
I'm barely making sense
For now I'm faking it
'Til I'm psuedo-making it
From scratch, begin again
But this time I as "I"
And not as "we"

2008-11-19T04:12:00.001+08:00

;SO MAD THAT
I CAN FAAAAART
FIRE BOMBS!!! :O

-hahahahahah
bullshit crap talk.

2008-11-17T02:26:00.001+08:00

;It'll be a year today.
but today's just a normal dayy,
i'll never forget those days..

If I were a boy
Even just for a day
I’d roll out of bed in the morning
And throw on what I wanted and go
Drink beer with the guys
And chase after girls
I’d kick it with who I wanted
And I’d never get confronted for it
Because they’d stick up for me

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I’d be a better man
I’d listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he’s taken you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

If I were a boy
I would turn off my phone
Tell everyone its broken
So they think
that I was sleeping alone
I’d put myself first
And make the rules as I go
Cause I know that she’d be faithful
Waiting for me to come home (to come home)

"

It’s a little too late for you to come back
Say its just a mistake
Think I forgive you like that
If you thought I would wait for you
You thought wrong

But you're just a boy
You don’t understand (yea you don’t understand)
How it feels to love a girl
Someday you’ll wish you were a better man
You don’t listen to her
You don’t care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
Cause you've taken her for granted
And everything you had got destroyed
But you're just a boy…

2008-11-17T00:02:00.003+08:00

;arghhhhhh fucking stress, im about to die!!
well not really, hee i think im seriously slacking
too much, & yeah STILL! Drawing Fundamentals
Review on tuesdayy, its already fucking sunday!
okokayy i gotta run, literally run & do my work, toodles :]

die lah, imu.
fuck the hell outta me! :[

2008-11-12T02:57:00.004+08:00

;I've not met you nor seen you for days.
& when i got the news, i literally stoned.
Im really really am sorryyy to hear the news.
As a friend, I really cant do anything, but be
by your side, & be by my phone as well.

No matter what, im always gonna be here for you.
Remember that. Because thats what friends are for.
Youve been through too much, i know.
Im really sorry for your loss, I really am.

Please takecare of yourself, pal.
I dont want you end up falling ill. This is not the right time
to fall ill, you know it too. so please, takecare alrights.
Get alot of rest. &

I send my condolences, my pal.

2008-11-10T03:15:00.000+08:00

Mother I ask for your love
I miss our travels and talks
I miss our times
All I ask is for us to be friends

Mother cradle me your baby
I am just asking for your kindness
I'm longing only for a peaceful time with you
All I'm asking is not to be pushed away

Mother I ask for your hugs
to mend my broken heart
caused by my love
All I'm asking for is to be embrace

Mother I say to you
give me your time so I can ask
questions I have been holding for years

Mother I ask for your kisses
soft as a dove
I ask you to help me grow

Mother I ask for your attention
Just this once
I only ask for your time

Mother I ask for a part in your heart
Not to be pushed off

Mother don't give me your anger
I don't want your silence
Mother I want your smile

Mother I wish
I wish for your stories
not our problems
I wish for us
I wish for you

2008-11-07T06:55:00.003+08:00

;WOAHHHH its 7am & im actually still awake doing work.
but apollo's distracting me with msn!!! hahah fuckerr.
& flamingo, the fool's out for more lung cancer.

pfffttt, im actually proud, ive not smoked for some time
alreadyyy, which is awesome :]

2008-11-06T02:59:00.003+08:00

;Remember how we all used to be so close.
like a family of siblings, somehow.
but now its all gone, but we still have to move on.
NO MATTER WHAT, LIFE GOES ON :]

theres always changes in life, we just have to accept it.
Someday, i'll wait for that very dayy!

;finally i got to wear my shirt :]

2008-11-05T04:24:00.003+08:00

;hello! why, im surprised im still up right now, at 430am.
hah the night before's 2hours sleep & yesterday's 2hours
afternoon nap at Grace's did help a lil. sighh this sucks.

school has been taking my sleeeep away! now i cant grow taller :[
& my face's condition's bad too, fucked up. due to period, &
especially the stupid sleepless nights. fuck you!

anyways after Assessment, which is like in 2 & 1/2 weeks,
im gonna sleep AS MUCH AS I CAN, "i dont give a shit" -chris.
hahaha & michael called me!! michael called me!! *ahem.

-back to work.
<3 my SPECIAL friend.

goodnights.

2008-11-04T05:52:00.001+08:00

;i somehow miss you.

2008-11-02T04:11:00.003+08:00

;Got the tickets but cant make it to Singapore Tattoo Convention
on January 9th!! This fucking suckkks, aint fair man! POOOOOF-

2008-10-29T00:05:00.002+08:00

;It's a Fucked up world; What a Fucked up place
Everybodys judged by their Fucked up face
Fucked up dreams; Fucked up life
A Fucked up kid with a Fucked up knife
Fucked up moms and Fucked up dads
and a Fucked up cop with a Fucked up badge
With a Fucked up job with Fucked up pay
and a Fucked up boss that's a Fucked up day
Fucked up breasts, Fucked up lives
While lethal's in the back with the Fucked of the five

Ain't it a shame that you can't say Fuck?
Fuck's just a word and it's all Fucked up
And a Fucked up punk with a Fucked up mouth
And Nine inch nails is getting knocked the Fuck out
Fucked AIDs from Fucked up sex
and fake-ass titties on a Fucked up chest
Your all fucked up, so whatcha wanna do?
Fucked up me, and fucked up you.

You wanna Fuck me like an animal
You like to Burn me on the inside
You like to think that I'm a perfect drug;
Just know that nothing ya do, will bring you closer to me

Ain't life a bitch? a Fucked up bitch?
A Fucked up sore with a Fucked up stitch
a Fucked up head- It's a Fucked up shame
swinging on my nuts is a Fucked up game
Jealousy fillin' up a Fucked up mind;
It's real Fucked up like a Fucked up crime
If I say Fuck two more times;
That's 46 Fucks in this Fucked up rhyme

2008-10-28T02:56:00.002+08:00

;hah its hilarious, super interesting.
filled with rage, wanna pull all your hair out.
you fools. fools fools :]

HAH how interesting i might sayy, really.

2008-10-27T03:53:00.002+08:00

;Having a bad ass headache now, feels like a fever coming up.
sigh i hope not, i cant afford to fall sick now, i've still got so
much more work to do, sigh. I cant take it anymore. I really
wanna give up, but i fucking cant, i fucking cant!

I feel so so tired. These days been having diarrhea, & also bad
dreams, nightmares. I somehow feel like something's gonna
happen, to me or whatever. I dont feel so well. Im scared.
I really am. I dont know whats happening, or is there something
that someone or something is trying to tell me? sigh.

I need rest, yeah maybe its cause ive not been sleeping well
for i dont know how long already. I really need someone
to hold my hand & be with me. I cant take this no longer.

GET THIS FUCKING OVER & DONE WITH PLEASE.

2008-10-25T04:16:00.000+08:00

;MAX PAAAAAYNE with ah poh yesterday night.
it was cool, hahaha i had a great laugh, thanks! :]

-movie was not bad i would say. it was thrilling for me.
not much for ah poh im guessing. hahaha

& I GOT A BAD ASS SHOCK AT ONE SCENE.
FUCKING LITERALLY JUMPED FROM MY SEAT.
AHAHAHAHAH SO EMBARRASSING!!

2008-10-24T04:09:00.000+08:00

;these days ive been heading to school & fro by bus.
im actually proud of myself, taking the public transport.
hee & the best. i, well had no choice, so took a morning bus
to school for 9am class on tuesdayyy. hah funny thing is
my sis dropped me at Parkway bus stop & EIGHT AM
to take a 15mins bus to school but i ended up reaching
school at 9am sharp, why? cause i purposely missed 3
to 4 bus 48 because it was so fucking crowded!!!!!!!!!!!

hahaha but yeah, no choice, last one i had to take or i'll
be late but well, it wasnt that bad, thank gawd. i seriously
dont get how these people can sqqquuuueeeeze their way
to work or school like this. its MAD CRAZY OKAYYYY.

Anyways, now i know what youve been saying. Bus rides
alone, with your own music blasting in your ears. Its
just like your own world for that moment. Nothing to
think about, but just listening to your music, & enjoying
the trip back home. Its relaxing. Now i get what you & him
are trying to tell me. i miss you both, alot :]

2008-10-20T23:54:00.002+08:00

;im a full red-head againn :]
& redhead's really really tired.
-really really stressed out.
-really really bummed out.
-really really wanna get this over & done with!

:[

2008-10-20T03:42:00.001+08:00

;Babble, Babble, Bitch, Bitch
Rebel, Rebel, Party, Party
Sex, sex, sex, don't forget the violence
Blah, blah, blah
Got your lovey-dovey sad and lonely
Stick your stupid slogan in
Everybody sing along
Babble, Babble, Bitch, Bitch
Rebel, Rebel, Party, Party
Sex, sex, sex, don't forget the violence
Blah, blah, blah
Got your lovey-dovey sad and lonely
Stick your stupid slogan in
Everybody sing along

There's nothing left to say anymore
When it's all the same
You can ask for it by name

FUCKING TIRED< GOODNIGHTS!
SCHOOL TMR, KILL ME :[
-YOU GET WELL SOOOOOON KAY.

2008-10-19T00:29:00.003+08:00

;if we were still together, we'd just passed our 11th month.
next month, it'll a year already. cant believe it.
hah, we've been parted bout 2months already, & im actually
rather impressed with myself at the time ive come about of
getting over you. I really thought it'd take months & months.

I guess im wrong. & im glad i am. I really do hope youre doing
well. I've not seen you for some time already, we've not talked
for so long, & i really do miss you, miss your company.

Since we seldom meet now, i wish you all the best okay.
I hope youre happy. Cause, well, i am :]

lots of love. <3>

2008-10-16T03:24:00.000+08:00

;WHY IS IT SLANTED!
IT AINT SUPPOSED TO BE!
DAMN IT DAMN IT.

FUCK YOU =P

If you change your mind, I'm the first in line
Honey I'm still free
Take a chance on me
If you need me, let me know, gonna be around
If you've got no place to go, if you're feeling down
If you're all alone when the pretty birds have flown
Honey I'm still free
Take a chance on me
Gonna do my very best and it ain't no lie
If you put me to the test, if you let me try

Take a chance on me
's all I ask of you honey

We can go dancing, we can go walking, as long as we're together
Listen to some music, maybe just talking, get to know you better
'cos you know I've got
So much that I wanna do, when I dream I'm alone with you
It's magic
You want me to leave it there, afraid of a love affair
But I think you know
That I can't let go

:]

2008-10-15T01:45:00.002+08:00

;im super super tired, it aint funny.
been sleeping only a few hours, then long hours,
then naps, then short hours of sleep, sighh.
its been so irregular i cant take it no longer.

but i cannot give up mann, i cannot fail again.
it so isnt fun at all, no no. it seriously aint cool.
sigh wheres my determination, my perseverance,
my discipline, my strength.

is it true, what i heard. its been in my mind
these days. i dont know what to do, how to
react. hopefully its gone before i knew it.

i need love.

2008-10-08T02:41:00.003+08:00

;seriously, dont fool around with me.
i aint a nice person to mess with okay.

i will fucking dig your eyes out.

dont play me like this.
it aint funny.

you'll get payback someday.
someday.

"death is a promise and his life is a fucking lie
and if he thinks he is alive then tell him he is better off dead" -online buddy.

2008-10-07T03:09:00.001+08:00

;i seriously cant wait to
get my tattoo done!! :]

2008-10-07T01:04:00.003+08:00

;talked to C & G last night, & yeah obviously it really did open my mind.
hah poor G's annoyed at the fact of my stupid mindset. & C, well she's
annoyed either, hahaha yeah. sorry babies!

anyways, i promise to move ONE STEP AT A TIME, & try my best
not to take 4 steps back okay. you babies are my best support.
i love all of you girls <3 size="5">

;JON, NIZAM & ARD!

I'll miss you three army boys hell loads!
takecare & come back soooon :]

2008-10-05T03:08:00.002+08:00

;talking to C for the past nights was actually really cool.
we get to rant at each other all the stupid crap we've been through,
hahah its really heart warming to know about each other.
& what has been going on between our lives.
sweetie i know its frustrating but chill babe :] youre strong hun.
lets meet up soon okay, maybe after i get my tattoo.
then we can flaunt it babyy. takecare youu & yes i will stop hurting myself.

really, i wanna get this over, i really do. its such a waste of time.
i feel so so so stupid at times, hah do laugh at my stupidity please.
i feel useless, so betrayed, so owned biggggg time sometimes.
so not worth it man, so not worth. how you walked on me like this.
shed no more tears you, grow up, im a big girl now. & i dont need a man.

i just need to concentrate on work right noww. peace out fellas!
-

2008-09-30T00:15:00.001+08:00

;FUCK ME FOR FUCKING UP BOTH HANDS.
im sorry baby.

-but i honestly dont regret.

2008-09-27T05:22:00.001+08:00

;LET ME GO! LET ME GO! LET ME GO! LET ME GO! LET ME GO! LET ME GO! LET ME GO! LET ME GO! LET ME GO! LET ME GO! LET ME GO! LET ME GO! LET ME GO! LET ME GO! LET ME GO! LET ME GO! LET ME GO! LET ME GO! LET ME GOOOOOO!

2008-09-26T05:50:00.001+08:00

Alicia, don't cry, I know
[You're trying your hardest]
And the hardest part is letting go
Of the nights we shared
Ocala is calling and you know it's haunting
But compared to your eyes, nothing shines quite as bright
And when we look to the sky, its not mine, but i want it so

Let's not pretend like you're alone tonight
(I know he's there)
You're probably hanging out and making eyes
(while across the room, he stares)
I bet he gets the nerve to walk the floor
And ask my girl to dance, and she'll say yes

Because these words are never easier for me to say
Or her to second guess
But I guess
That I can live without you but
Without you I'll be miserable at best

You're all [that] I hoped I'd find
In every single way
And everything I would give
Is everything you couldn't take
Cause nothing feels like home, you're a thousand miles away
And the hardest part of living
Is just taking breaths to stay

Because I know I'm good for something
I just haven't found it yet
But I need it

And this will be the first time in a week
That I'll talk to you
And I can't speak
Been [three whole days since I've had sleep]
Because I dream of [her] lips on your cheek
And I got the point that I should leave you alone
But we both know that [I'm not that strong]
And I miss the lips that made me fly

-kill me, somebody.
let me fly, fly high.

-

2008-09-23T03:48:00.003+08:00

;sometimes i really dont know what im doing.
i feel so lost, & like so blur & stuff.
it sucks when im like this.

its like i never know what im doing.
& gosh it aint funny at all mann.

im so tired, 6am, gosh!
alrights, peace out.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANG GUANGREN, you bitch.

2008-09-22T14:25:00.001+08:00

-imissyou,
which sucks.

2008-09-20T08:13:00.000+08:00

;HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY GRACIEBABY!
youre 18 now hunn, no big deal to youu though.
but anyways, i hope you love the present!
& my stupid card for youu, hahah ILY BABYGIRL.

too bad the photos taken with you are in your cam! :[

;i just wanna drink my sorrows away baby.
i need someone here with me, to hold my hand.
i yearn for someone's touch, someone's love.
so much that i missed that i cant even remember.

2008-09-19T06:24:00.003+08:00

;HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY MUHD BABY!

gosh my first legal night of clubbing, at Zouk, Phuture.
to celebrate gren's advance birthdayy, hahaha.
fucking bastard got dead drunk mann, funny shit!

anyways, the night was okay.
met Gene & Leo, my hairdressers, tsk!
& also Simon, & yeahh heehee interesting.
Music was hella boring mann, like "Dont Speak"??
& "Girlfriend", peww-ewww.

Hopefully next time it'll be better.
nights yall, i lost like 18bucks to the air..

2008-09-17T03:59:00.002+08:00

;i am so fucking tired.
yeah i know ive been saying this line for so long already.
but its true, i havent been sleeping much, its only a few
hours a time. its so hard to go on like this, i dont wanna
end up having dark circles man. it aint cool.

school has been so stressful, i wanna cry.
im really trying to catch up as much as i can but
theres always some distraction going on, sighh sucky.
but seriously thanks to you too, for the encouragement
throughout. youve been the one tryna pull me across the
sinking ocean. thankyou. i dont wanna fail again, it
seriously is not fun okay, you know how it feels, hahaha

we're gonna work hard together, but i bet you'll definitely
pass, you hardworking freak!
its already 4am now, school starts in 5hours.
i gotta wake up in 4hours time. not cool not cool.
super sleppy, & ive not finished my work.
imma prepare to be killed tmr.
hand's turning purple! :[

2008-09-13T04:35:00.000+08:00

You might not agree with a close friend,
but you need to respect their opinions.

2008-09-09T23:37:00.000+08:00

"Your healthy ambition is driving
your personal life right now -- set some big goals."

2008-09-07T18:58:00.001+08:00

;HAPPY BIRTHDAY
TO ME!
im finally eighteeeeeen.

2008-09-05T04:01:00.002+08:00

;I am so so so so so so damn lethargic mann.
Im about to die, collapse, faint, & start snoring on the floor.
Havent been sleeping much these days, sigh.
School is so stressful, its not funn at all, not fun!

I dont know what to do no more.
I feel so lost right now.
Everything's gonna be a rush as usual.

SNORE SNORE.

2008-09-05T01:56:00.000+08:00

'lets get this party started.

2008-09-01T01:41:00.001+08:00

;i admit im stupid for fucking up my hand.
im sorry to hurt those who cared about me.
im sorry to hurt you guys when i hurt myself.
im stupid.

you guys are my strength.

i love you guys millions.

2008-08-26T03:26:00.000+08:00

;ITS ALL CLEAR NOW.
:]

2008-08-25T23:23:00.000+08:00

Aicha - Outlandish. [justin says i can swap my name in this song.]

So sweet, so beautiful
Everyday like a queen on her throne
Don't nobody knows how she feels
Aicha, lady one day it will be real

She moves, she moves like a breeze
I swear I can't get her out of my dreams
To have her shining right here by my side
I'd sacrifice all the tears in my eyes

Aicha Aicha, passing me by (there she goes again)
Aicha Aicha, my my my (is it really real)
Aicha Aicha, smile for me now
Aicha Aicha, in my life

She holds her child to her heart
Makes her feel like she is blessed from above
Falls asleep underneath her sweet tears
Her lullaby fades away with his fears

Aicha Aicha, passing me by (there she goes again)
Aicha Aicha, my my my

She needs somebody to lean on
Someone body, mind & soul
To take her hand, to take her world
And show her the time of her life, so true
Throw the pain away for good
No more contemplating boo

Lord knows the way she feels
Everyday in his name she begins
To have her shining here by my side
I'd sacrifice all the tears in my eyes
Aicha Aicha, ecout moi

Aicha Aicha, passing me by (there she goes again)
Aicha Aicha, my my my (is it really real)
Aicha Aicha, smile for me now
Aicha Aicha, in my life

Aicha Aicha (there she goes again)
Aicha Aicha, passing me by (is it really real)
Aicha Aicha
Aicha Aicha

;im addicted to this song now, thanks to you justin fool.

2008-08-19T02:04:00.002+08:00

;Thanks MTV for playing great songs
& accompanying me through my
late nights of doing assignments :]

-heehee!

2008-08-18T21:46:00.000+08:00

I would dig a thousand holes to lay next to you
I would dig a thousand more if I needed to

I look around the grave
For an escape route of old routines
There doesn't seem to be any other way

Cause I've started falling apart
I'm not savouring life
I've forgotten how good it could be
To feel alive

Crazy as it sounds you won't
Feel as low as you feel right now
At least that's what I've been told by everyone

I whisper empty sounds in your ear
And hope that you won't let go

Take the pieces and build them skywards

Cause I've started falling apart
I'm not savouring life
I've forgotten how good it could be
To feel alive

I've started falling apart
I'm not savouring life
Take the pieces and build them skywards
I've forgotten how good it could be
To feel alive
Take the pieces and build them skywards

Take the pieces and build them up to the sky

-

2008-08-18T02:06:00.000+08:00

; "its for my ex-girlfriend" -he says.

-

2008-08-07T23:41:00.005+08:00

;Im glad things are over now.
Im glad at least you gave me a last kiss.
Im glad at least you called me baby for the last time.
Im just glad we had that last talk.
& Im glad we're good friends now.

Thank you for the past 8 & a 1/2 months.
It has been the best time of my life.
Thank you for being a part of my life.

but you dont know how much

i still love you.

-

2008-08-06T00:02:00.000+08:00

Lay a whisper On my pillow
Leave the winter On the ground
I wake up lonely There's air of silence
In the bedroom And all around
Touch me now, I close my eyes
And dream away.

It must have been love
But it's over now
It must have been good
But I lost it somehow
It must have been love
But it's over now
From the moment we touched
'Til the time had run out.

Make-believing We're together
That I'm sheltered By your heart
But in and outside
I've turned to water
Like a teardrop In your palm
And it's a hard Winter's day
I dream away.

-

2008-08-05T21:35:00.000+08:00

;i miss you okay.
i really do.

-

2008-08-05T21:25:00.001+08:00

;started the morning with puffy eyes.
& school was such a bore bore bore!

you didnt come today, at all.

-

2008-08-03T03:08:00.001+08:00

can you tell me whats going on?

2008-08-03T03:06:00.003+08:00

i need to talk to someone.
can i talk to you please.
you, whoever you are.
i dont need to know you.
really, i dont.
i just want to talk to you.

2008-08-03T03:01:00.003+08:00

what did i do to deserve this.
what what what!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i dont know what to fucking do. i wanna be fucking strong man.
i can fucking survive this, i know i can fucking do this but i dont know
whats fucking pulling me down. school's fucking starting. i need to pass.
i cant let this fucking thing destroy it. i need fucking strength.
please fucking help me. please.

2008-08-03T00:13:00.001+08:00

You said, it wasn't gonna be like it was before.
Then it happened again.
Pushing me back out the door.
Thought it would be for real this time.
Love me forget about the signs.
So now what do i do?
Now that I know that we're through.

Wish that I could move on
Can't let go, it's too strong
Just like that and then you're gone
If this how you wanted it to be?
Everything you had to say
Sent the tears right down my face
Now I'm trying to escape
The misery

Why don't you love me?
The way I'd loved you
It feels so crazy
'Coz I don't know what I did to you
If you're gonna hurt me
Then do it quickly
'Coz I'm tired of cryin'
If you don't wanna stick around
Then, baby forget about me.

Too late, sorry.
I didn't have the chance
You said you were happy
Baby, I don't understand
Gave you everything you asked for
And was ready to give you a lot more
I would've given you the world
Right in the palm of your hand.

Forget about me.
I really love you.