.BBQ PARTY.

;Gracie's awesome full sleeve done by baby!

;She's the loser :] but i still love her. NOT!

;The blondies.

;Pout, Smile, Pout, Smile!

;Alee, Flamingo, Gracie, Jon!

.GUESS THE BUTTS.

;KHAI'S & CHIN'S.

;JON'S & FLAMINGO'S.

;FAI'S & ARD'S.

;ALEE'S & GRACIE'S.

;NIZAM ZAM ZAM.

;KHAI, FLAMINGO, CHIN, GRACIE, ALEE, ARD & JON!

yippee, finally my uggs have arrived.

;SECRET, covert, stealthy, furtive, clandestine, surreptitious, underhanded mean done without attracting observation. secret implies concealment on any grounds for any motive secret location>. covert stresses the fact of not being open or declared <covert intelligence operations>. stealthy suggests taking pains to avoid being seen or heard especially in some misdoing stealthy step of a burglar>. furtive implies a sly or cautious stealthiness furtive glances>. clandestine implies secrecy usually for an evil, illicit, or unauthorized purpose and often emphasizes the fear of being discovered clandestine meeting of conspirators>. surreptitious applies to action or behavior done secretly often with skillful avoidance of detection and in violation of custom, law, or authority surreptitious stockpiling of weapons>. underhanded stresses fraud or deception underhanded trick>.

;There are more unknown things to be untold. Things to be kept to myself. For who can i spit it out, a bottle? the mirror that preys my reflection, maybe. I dont know what to do, how to react or should i react. Things are jumbling upside down in my mind, for i keep thinking the worst out of things. May things be good as always, may WE seven-minus-four be as close together forever. "I LOVE YOU" and "I LOVE YOU TOO".

GRACE KIM SOO HYUN,
HUN, PLEASE DONT LEAVEEEE!

;Leap Years was a great movie, especially watching it beside you, baby.
With my arm around yours and my head resting on your boney shoulders,
it was so relaxing and comfortable. :] heeehees.

Bucket full of tears at the end of the movie.
Especially after so many things have been happening between us.
Those serious talks about us.
So many true sensible words in the movie that made me relate it to us.

Baby, i love you so.

Your Secret's Safe With Me.

;Something so big to be kept and untold - its hard but its a must.
I find that things have moved quite a bit nowadays. We arent that
cheerful like we used to be, so close like we used to be, and now you
throw me this big part of new you into me that i have to keep, forever,
only me to know. Im trying really hard to do so. Really hard.

Youre just so lethargic these days. I understand. Lack of sleep.
But i missed those times and things we used to do together.
Chit-chatting over the wee hours, laughing till i forget the word
"sleep". But i could hardly even say the word "goodnight" out
loud to you now. One minute we're talking on the phone, or
just messaging each other, the next is just SILENT.
Not a word, not a reply.

When my phone lights up, I immediately pick it up, thinking
its a reply or your call that you said you were gonna call back
in 5mins, which an hour has passed, but it was just "BATTERY FULL".

I miss you alot, ALOT.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, SAB'S MOM! [once in every 4years]

;Went to Garden Slug with baby and had lunch there :]
The food's really good but aint really that cheap though.

Chilled there and he helped me with my stupid dumb essay.
Baby, im sorray i suck at focusing! geez i kept laughing
the whole entire time. My bad.

Baby had to leave to meet Mel, Han and others to go for
some gig so i went home to have dinner too and also to
complete up my essay which ive to submit by ELEVEN PM.
-End up handing in my ONE THOUSAND words essay
which i roughly took about 12 whole fcuking hours to
do at FIVE AM. Im SIX hours late for my submission!! :]

Dead tired. Shall head to bed, "GOOD MORNING".

;FCUK YOU WHORE.
-You know what, you should just go kill yourself right now.
I dont get how people can stand you, no, wait, THEY CANT!
Im sorray im being really mean now but youre just ruining
my life alrights. i know i should have respects for you and
whatever shit but you dont deserve mine. you blooday dont.

;Just go sing everyday and sing your damn heart out. may your
new neighbours throw eggs at your door because you..well, dont
really sing that good anyways :] well i dont know who said those
hurtful comments but if its really you, well you should jolly fcuk off.
Anyone else can say it but from you, thats disgraceful. You have
caused so much trouble you dont even know it. Thousands of
people hate you, you dont even know it. You think youre so damn
nice, so damn good and youre the best in the world..KISS ME ASS!

*i know im being rude and really mean to you, even though i totally
should not be doing this and saying these about you, but,
"I'VE HAD ENOUGH OF YOUR NONSENSE."

;playing Volleyball in the middle of the night at the tennis court
was absolutely exhausting but uber fun :] even though i could hardly
even see the ball coming for me or not.

-and blood bruises are not appealing.

;FOOL'S GOLD with sab was awesome.
just like the good ol' times we had :]

"WE'RE FLYING!" ... "YEAAAP!"
"NOW HOW DO WE LAND?!" ... "YEAAAP!"

;LATE NIGHT MACDONALDS.





;we just love fooling around and having FUN :]

;Chilling downstairs with Gracie at the fountain
with the kickass fast internet connection :]

;STARTED UNBRAIDING MY BRAIDS :]

WELCOME
TO
BURLINGTON,
CELINE :]

;SLEEK.

;decorated and enhanced his jeans with
masking tape! :]

;BOO :]

HAPPY
VALENTINE'S
DAY
EVERYONE :]

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR.

PHUKET.

;BanThai Resort :]

;One the beaches we went - Phi Phi Don.

;Reunion dinner at Zen jap restaurant.

;Transvestists!
;Preparing for Para-sailing at Patong Beach :]


;In the Tuk-Tuk with uncle, aunt and cousin.

;back home to Singapore.

;Fun and Relaxing trip.but the weather was uber uber hot!
im practically tanned and i feel like an african with my braids :]
Overall it was AWESOME trip.

;PHUKET FOR A FEW DAYS.

-toodles all my SWEETIE-PIES.
I LOVE YOU ALL :]

and HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!

MOM'S WORDS TO ME.
written on her blog.

One can only control own actions and comments but not what others say or do to you. End of the day if your conscience is clear that you have not done or say anything to hurt others and yet you find yourself at the receiving end, being blamed, then you should remind yourself that what others want to do or say is beyond your control. One can only be fair to everybody but one can never please everybody.

To be weighed down by what others say or do to you is never positive or productive. If the accusations are untrue, by all means tell your side of the story. But if the accusations are done behind your back without hearing your version of the situation, the next question will be whether it requires your explanation. If it’s not too serious let it go and be at peace with the knowledge that it’s not your fault.

If it's serious enough and need clarification, ask if immediate response is required because with certain situations time will automatically reveal the truth. This tells you to be patient and at peace with yourself, when you are at peace with yourself the accusations will not affect you. A peaceful person gets strength from a clear conscience, strong enough not to be swayed by false accusations.

Remember, you can only be fair to everyone but you will never be able to please everyone. If you can achieve this you will be at peace with yourself and at peace with everyone.

;Even though its rather difficult for me to understand the entire passage because i dont really have such a smart brain afterall, at least i managed to catch what my mom was trying to say to me. I really love my mom for being there for me all the time and being the most understanding mom, ever. Sometimes i think about it, we hardly have fights, seriously. Its only a little pickering here and there but overall, my mom's relationship with me is awesome. We hardly quarrel, thats cause i think we really understand each other even if we both dont say a word. I LOVE YOU MOM :] We're gonna have a great kickass time in Phuket! -finally a year where you can relax during the hectic Chinese New Year and without the stress of your parents [WHOOPS! did i just say that?] geez, LOVE YOU MOM, again.

LASALLE'S OPEN HOUSE.

;was supposed to go to school at 2pm to grade the hat
and for the White parade but i couldnt finish my hat in time.
damns so i guess i'll have to appeal to get it graded.
yes i agree, I AM SUCH A BITCH [sorraybaby]

But however went to school to get the hair dryer from Romeo.
Aaron came over to burlington and i mistook him for Flaming!
Got hungry so went to simlim to try out the Naan with Chin.
It was alright but i didnt like the oh-so-cold dal :[
Han and Cheryl came over followed by JON and NIZAMZAM.

;HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY, FLAMINGO!!

and HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY, ANDY!! :]

;Went for Dahlia's class with Diana.had to do some
experiments about COLLECTING THE SUN.it was stupid but
pretty interesting.hahas we both came up with stupid idea of
putting paper under the sun but realised that Dahlia was saying
that it would take months for the sun to change the color of the paper!
Diana was hungry so we secretly bought Bk to eat during class :]

After school went to meet Sab at Fongseng. We've finally met!!, after so long.
i missed you, babe.heehees it was great to just sit there and talk about our life.
Seems like shes having fun and stuff and yeah, it was really great.
Gonna meet her again on Monday night for dinner!
Went to ArtFriend after that to buy more white paper materials for
the White Project for ThreeDee.

Stayed up the whole night to actually do the hat but i did halfway
and went to sleep, kept waking up then going back to sleep.
Went to Fongseng with Chin at like 3am or something.
My hat looked so so funny please! GEEZ.

R.I.P
BOU BOU
31.01.2008

;HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY, NIZAM ZAM!! :]

-couldnt celebrate nizam's birthday to day cause he didnt bookout.
Had photography class today and we had the chance to use an SLR! ive been waiting so
long for this day to come.hahas but i didnt know using this stupid large heavy cam was
so difficult.had to learn about aperture, shutter, and so many more.it really blurs me out
completely.Guess ive got so much more to learn before buying it.geez!and what really
put me off was the terribly hot hot weather outside.gosh i could have just died.
I HATE YOU, SUN. (well, ive never liked you before anyways) :]

I got frustrated not being able to take nice photos and shit.got pissed with him too
which put him off. Went to eat at wetmarket with Flaming, Bree and Jellydear after class.
We had a long talk again when we went back home.goodness this will never end!
These stuff has been making me really stressful and really down these few days/weeks.
And not only do i suffer on my own but ive been putting my anger on him and
im really sorray, baby. I get pissed at every little thing he does and of course he doesnt
like it too. Im just stupid, stupid.I trust him, definitly but i have to overcome the thoughts
thats running through my mind as well. I dont know where to go, which side to head to.
Im really confuse bout everything. I keep blaming myself but i dont know if thats what
i should be doing. ;DUMBFOUNDED.

I really thank you for staying by me for all this time, baby. I appreciate it alot.
Im sorray if ive been treating you unreasonably these days. The things are just really
getting to me, im trying to avoid but i cant. Its right in front of me. But i want you to
know i still love you and will always do. I know you have alot of problems going on
as well for yourself and i hardly know them but i know youre not feeling very well too.
Just know that i'll be there for you too. ILY, OTTO GAN PAYCHIN.

;Im back home now, still trying to recover from being sick and the worse for a talkative
person is for one to be losing one's voice. My voice has been sounding like im totally
out of tune which is totally not good at all. Its sickening.
I cant shout, i can hardly talk. PEE-EEEEEEW.

After school i met Sab outside, surprisingly. Man, i missed her so much. We used to
talk about any crap we could think about and our lives and all. To think how long
we've not met, sighh. Im gonna meet her soon before heading to Phuket and prolly
this meeting will try bring us closer together again. Takecare babe! :]

Went back to #0707 and Bree and Flaming were going to the wetmarket so Chin went
to help get me food from there as well. Soon at home, Jelly wanted to go for a swim
but damn, i cant go as im still sick.sigh so Fai went down with her to use the lappy
while Gracie and i fell asleep upstairs. Chin came back soon after but i was still too
tired to go out so he let me sleep for another few mins and by then Bree and Flaming
came back home.

When i finally decided to go out and eat, Jelly decided to head for a nap..and so went
Flaming, Gracie too, again. Hakim came over as well. But left to go back home with
Fai not long after.Chin went to lie down too but end up sleeping. Only Bree and i were
left awake. I wanted to go to the stairs to spray fixative on my charcoal works but went
to look at the stairs, i totally freaked out, it was so dark and scaaaary! So decided to
just spray it outside the door.Christelle and Bunny came over but left after like 10mins?
And Bree came outside to join me during their 10mins as the couple were quarelling
inside.GEEZ! over the iTouch.

They left and Bree and i just stayed outside and talked for the time i was doing my work.
It was nice and relaxing just chilling outside there talking about stuff. I wanted to talk
to her bout stuff making me uber paranoid everyday but i didnt. Dont know why. Maybe
it was that stupid big ant that distracted me. Stupid long life ant, couldnt die by fixative.
Lucky Bree killed it with some plant i tore.heeees damn dumb. Went home after that
cause apparently sis had been calling me for 15times on my phone but i didnt know.
DAMNS! :]

;Today never felt any better, am still having bad sore throat, bad coughs and flu.
Being sick this way is the most horrible thing ever. Felt hot and feverish but lucky
there aint no fever.

The whole day was spent in the bed for me, watching television. I felt as if i was dying.
My body ached and i couldnt take it, i was just literally to weak. Hopefully i'll get well
soon again! :]

and adding..

HAPPY 44TH WEDDING ANNIVERSAY,
GRANDPA AND GRANDMA! :]

;Woke up with a uber bad ass cough, sore throat and flu.
What retribution, you may think. I hate being sick!
Its making me weaker, making me more tired.
And i even had a bad NOSE BLEED due to blowing my nose too hard.
Sigh, what a way to start my Saturday.

Went to Grandparents' Graduation after that. They attended a course for senior citizens
to learn how to enjoy their golden age.hahas! geez it was awfully boring but
seeing my grandparents having their graduation even with their MotarBoard is so cute!
Im glad that they're having their graduation with smiles and having their children and

grandchildren there to support them, even though their graduation is..a little late in age.

;grandma waving in enthusiasm. I LOVE YOU, GRANDMA & GRANDPA!

After their graduation, went to see my new house! Well the room's smaller but at least
its just right for the three of us and the view's great with the swimming pool right in front.
Im eager to move in there but theres yet for renovation and stuff.
Went for dinner at 7th Storey Steamboat. and even before eating, i couldnt take it but ran to the
toilet and bleaaaah puked. ewwww! my throat and cough's really really bad.

Was supposed to go to Amanda's birthday party at siglap but im afriad im gonng puke there or something so
head over and wished her but had to go soon after. Sorray, amanda! :] Hope i'll get well soon :[

;Late for twodee, damns.
All alone, until flaming came, one hour after.
Twodee's one of the best classes, prolly because its ChinKang.

Went to #0707 after that, Gracie still asleep.
Lay next to her and ended up falling asleep. Was too damn lethargic.
Kept waking up to see the time for tutorial. Diana kept calling.
Wondered if i should go over but i was really too tired.
In the end decided not to and head back to dreamland.
Diana called, poor girl got f*cked up AGAIN. Tutorial ended
earlier and made her waste effort on traveling all the way from her house
to school..and back again. Chin came over..when he was supposed to go to
school at 9am, it was already 2pm by then. HMPPFF.

We then went to Fareast to get Mel's anniversary's present. The whole trip was gloomy
for me after prolly a misunderstanding at home but i couldnt stand it anymore.
Its hard for me to be in this relationship if this goes on. Im standing on a thin rope, and
due to my bad bad balancing, i may fall off to my death in any second on time.

Im sorray baby if i made you feel how i felt. Its just really hard for me. Im too weak to take
all this stressfulness. I want to stand strong, be strong but i keep falling, everytime.
You said that we can do this together, i promised you but seriously i dont know if i can.
Your drop of tear for me weakened me alot when i saw your face. Im afraid, very afraid, very very afraid.
And i know in this situation, God's help is useless.HMM..

;Photography - Pinhole Camera.
My tin didnt quite work out right, guess the safety pin hole had been poked to big.
Had to use Diana's in the end, well everyone did. Her tin was the best, as usual.
I ended up using lots of photograph sheet/paper thingy/whatever you call that.
And ended up being frustrated over it..headed over to simlim for lunch.
We all went for a swim later in the night and i felt so good, having to spend more time
With them is joyful. Maybe its not the same as before but im contented with this.

Went over to Terminal3 at midnight and spend the night there. Its really relaxing and
chilly there and great to do work there.
Went to Bree's house later on and her room is so pink! -flamingo pink to be exact.
Her photos taken before shocked me, to think how different she looked but still having
her gorgeous features. So amazing and black hair made her look cool.
We took a nap there and i had to use her bed, felt so bad where they had to squeeze in
her mom's bed, all stupid flamingo's fault.lazy asshole.


Home Sweet Home for dinner.

;Chin was supposed to wake up early to meet me at 10am but apparently he woke up late
and we had to meet an hour later. Went to wet market for breakfast with him and flaming.
im seriously starting to like wet market's cheap food but im still hating the wet, disgusting,
dirty, non-airconditioned environment there.yeah im uber fussy, i know that :]

Went for threedee class and diana came. We, group of four had to discuss on our joint project.
laughing like crazy over the "cockroach".but i think we're not gonna do it eventually..

;missed damn lecture again, not surprising.
late for ppd, how sweet. -wasnt paying much attention.

saw rome out the window at smoking area with shane and josh.messaged him and saw him stupidly
trying to look out for me.hahahas.
what a day.

; eles dizem que me modifiquei.
realmente quero saber how.is ele porque dont passam mais
tempo com eles mais mas só o meu namorado? Sou triste.
o ódio de fodendo este situation.talking para ela ou em msn é sempre
algo feliz para mim mas no momento sempre me sinto como se ela faz
eles não querem dizer comigo em all.i'm assim paranoid.i desejo o que as coisas fazem
esteja até novamente como before.god, por favor ajude-me a resolver esta situação.

;yesterday's Drawing Development class was postponed.
and so is today's 2D class. HOW GREAT!