;HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY, NIZAM ZAM!! :]

-couldnt celebrate nizam's birthday to day cause he didnt bookout.
Had photography class today and we had the chance to use an SLR! ive been waiting so
long for this day to come.hahas but i didnt know using this stupid large heavy cam was
so difficult.had to learn about aperture, shutter, and so many more.it really blurs me out
completely.Guess ive got so much more to learn before buying it.geez!and what really
put me off was the terribly hot hot weather outside.gosh i could have just died.
I HATE YOU, SUN. (well, ive never liked you before anyways) :]

I got frustrated not being able to take nice photos and shit.got pissed with him too
which put him off. Went to eat at wetmarket with Flaming, Bree and Jellydear after class.
We had a long talk again when we went back home.goodness this will never end!
These stuff has been making me really stressful and really down these few days/weeks.
And not only do i suffer on my own but ive been putting my anger on him and
im really sorray, baby. I get pissed at every little thing he does and of course he doesnt
like it too. Im just stupid, stupid.I trust him, definitly but i have to overcome the thoughts
thats running through my mind as well. I dont know where to go, which side to head to.
Im really confuse bout everything. I keep blaming myself but i dont know if thats what
i should be doing. ;DUMBFOUNDED.

I really thank you for staying by me for all this time, baby. I appreciate it alot.
Im sorray if ive been treating you unreasonably these days. The things are just really
getting to me, im trying to avoid but i cant. Its right in front of me. But i want you to
know i still love you and will always do. I know you have alot of problems going on
as well for yourself and i hardly know them but i know youre not feeling very well too.
Just know that i'll be there for you too. ILY, OTTO GAN PAYCHIN.

;Im back home now, still trying to recover from being sick and the worse for a talkative
person is for one to be losing one's voice. My voice has been sounding like im totally
out of tune which is totally not good at all. Its sickening.
I cant shout, i can hardly talk. PEE-EEEEEEW.

After school i met Sab outside, surprisingly. Man, i missed her so much. We used to
talk about any crap we could think about and our lives and all. To think how long
we've not met, sighh. Im gonna meet her soon before heading to Phuket and prolly
this meeting will try bring us closer together again. Takecare babe! :]

Went back to #0707 and Bree and Flaming were going to the wetmarket so Chin went
to help get me food from there as well. Soon at home, Jelly wanted to go for a swim
but damn, i cant go as im still sick.sigh so Fai went down with her to use the lappy
while Gracie and i fell asleep upstairs. Chin came back soon after but i was still too
tired to go out so he let me sleep for another few mins and by then Bree and Flaming
came back home.

When i finally decided to go out and eat, Jelly decided to head for a nap..and so went
Flaming, Gracie too, again. Hakim came over as well. But left to go back home with
Fai not long after.Chin went to lie down too but end up sleeping. Only Bree and i were
left awake. I wanted to go to the stairs to spray fixative on my charcoal works but went
to look at the stairs, i totally freaked out, it was so dark and scaaaary! So decided to
just spray it outside the door.Christelle and Bunny came over but left after like 10mins?
And Bree came outside to join me during their 10mins as the couple were quarelling
inside.GEEZ! over the iTouch.

They left and Bree and i just stayed outside and talked for the time i was doing my work.
It was nice and relaxing just chilling outside there talking about stuff. I wanted to talk
to her bout stuff making me uber paranoid everyday but i didnt. Dont know why. Maybe
it was that stupid big ant that distracted me. Stupid long life ant, couldnt die by fixative.
Lucky Bree killed it with some plant i tore.heeees damn dumb. Went home after that
cause apparently sis had been calling me for 15times on my phone but i didnt know.
DAMNS! :]

;Today never felt any better, am still having bad sore throat, bad coughs and flu.
Being sick this way is the most horrible thing ever. Felt hot and feverish but lucky
there aint no fever.

The whole day was spent in the bed for me, watching television. I felt as if i was dying.
My body ached and i couldnt take it, i was just literally to weak. Hopefully i'll get well
soon again! :]

and adding..

HAPPY 44TH WEDDING ANNIVERSAY,
GRANDPA AND GRANDMA! :]

;Woke up with a uber bad ass cough, sore throat and flu.
What retribution, you may think. I hate being sick!
Its making me weaker, making me more tired.
And i even had a bad NOSE BLEED due to blowing my nose too hard.
Sigh, what a way to start my Saturday.

Went to Grandparents' Graduation after that. They attended a course for senior citizens
to learn how to enjoy their golden age.hahas! geez it was awfully boring but
seeing my grandparents having their graduation even with their MotarBoard is so cute!
Im glad that they're having their graduation with smiles and having their children and

grandchildren there to support them, even though their graduation is..a little late in age.

;grandma waving in enthusiasm. I LOVE YOU, GRANDMA & GRANDPA!

After their graduation, went to see my new house! Well the room's smaller but at least
its just right for the three of us and the view's great with the swimming pool right in front.
Im eager to move in there but theres yet for renovation and stuff.
Went for dinner at 7th Storey Steamboat. and even before eating, i couldnt take it but ran to the
toilet and bleaaaah puked. ewwww! my throat and cough's really really bad.

Was supposed to go to Amanda's birthday party at siglap but im afriad im gonng puke there or something so
head over and wished her but had to go soon after. Sorray, amanda! :] Hope i'll get well soon :[

;Late for twodee, damns.
All alone, until flaming came, one hour after.
Twodee's one of the best classes, prolly because its ChinKang.

Went to #0707 after that, Gracie still asleep.
Lay next to her and ended up falling asleep. Was too damn lethargic.
Kept waking up to see the time for tutorial. Diana kept calling.
Wondered if i should go over but i was really too tired.
In the end decided not to and head back to dreamland.
Diana called, poor girl got f*cked up AGAIN. Tutorial ended
earlier and made her waste effort on traveling all the way from her house
to school..and back again. Chin came over..when he was supposed to go to
school at 9am, it was already 2pm by then. HMPPFF.

We then went to Fareast to get Mel's anniversary's present. The whole trip was gloomy
for me after prolly a misunderstanding at home but i couldnt stand it anymore.
Its hard for me to be in this relationship if this goes on. Im standing on a thin rope, and
due to my bad bad balancing, i may fall off to my death in any second on time.

Im sorray baby if i made you feel how i felt. Its just really hard for me. Im too weak to take
all this stressfulness. I want to stand strong, be strong but i keep falling, everytime.
You said that we can do this together, i promised you but seriously i dont know if i can.
Your drop of tear for me weakened me alot when i saw your face. Im afraid, very afraid, very very afraid.
And i know in this situation, God's help is useless.HMM..

;Photography - Pinhole Camera.
My tin didnt quite work out right, guess the safety pin hole had been poked to big.
Had to use Diana's in the end, well everyone did. Her tin was the best, as usual.
I ended up using lots of photograph sheet/paper thingy/whatever you call that.
And ended up being frustrated over it..headed over to simlim for lunch.
We all went for a swim later in the night and i felt so good, having to spend more time
With them is joyful. Maybe its not the same as before but im contented with this.

Went over to Terminal3 at midnight and spend the night there. Its really relaxing and
chilly there and great to do work there.
Went to Bree's house later on and her room is so pink! -flamingo pink to be exact.
Her photos taken before shocked me, to think how different she looked but still having
her gorgeous features. So amazing and black hair made her look cool.
We took a nap there and i had to use her bed, felt so bad where they had to squeeze in
her mom's bed, all stupid flamingo's fault.lazy asshole.


Home Sweet Home for dinner.

;Chin was supposed to wake up early to meet me at 10am but apparently he woke up late
and we had to meet an hour later. Went to wet market for breakfast with him and flaming.
im seriously starting to like wet market's cheap food but im still hating the wet, disgusting,
dirty, non-airconditioned environment there.yeah im uber fussy, i know that :]

Went for threedee class and diana came. We, group of four had to discuss on our joint project.
laughing like crazy over the "cockroach".but i think we're not gonna do it eventually..

;missed damn lecture again, not surprising.
late for ppd, how sweet. -wasnt paying much attention.

saw rome out the window at smoking area with shane and josh.messaged him and saw him stupidly
trying to look out for me.hahahas.
what a day.

; eles dizem que me modifiquei.
realmente quero saber how.is ele porque dont passam mais
tempo com eles mais mas só o meu namorado? Sou triste.
o ódio de fodendo este situation.talking para ela ou em msn é sempre
algo feliz para mim mas no momento sempre me sinto como se ela faz
eles não querem dizer comigo em all.i'm assim paranoid.i desejo o que as coisas fazem
esteja até novamente como before.god, por favor ajude-me a resolver esta situação.

;yesterday's Drawing Development class was postponed.
and so is today's 2D class. HOW GREAT!

;MAMEE'S AWESOME.

;OOOOOOH?

;Alee & Otto-chan :]

;okaaaay, i look sick.

;I followed a rabbit
through rows of mermaids
entwined shrubbery!

UH HUH, like Jellydear, ive got my Smiley piercing done too :]
and it did hurt like itsy-bitsy-pie-roll!
man, am i not gonna ever get a piercing done with a needle.
and i will never forget Han's hands squashing my face :]

;Thanks baby for the piercing.

;I followed a rabbit
through rows of mermaids
entwined shrubbery!

;I HAVE CHANGED MY HAIRSTYLE!





;RAAAAH but jellydear's right, it does
look kinda EMOOOOOOOO.

but i aint emo alrights.
im one of a hell happy kickass girl!

;and here comes the sad part,
my hairstylist said that the RED's
not gonna last long, well as usual,
so i guess im gonna have to..
WASH MY HAIR ONCE EVERY 3-4 DAYS! :]


;The END.

;I followed a rabbit
through rows of mermaids
entwined shrubbery!

;HAPPY NEW YEAR!

'Fai and G's performance was AWESOME.
All of us didnt want to go home so ended up heading to Starbucks at Liat Towers.
Orchard Road felt like 8pm at 4am on 1st January '08!

'Waited for the first bus at FarEast and made our way home.
Ended up sleeping at about 10am when we reached as Flamingo, Khai,
Otto and I camped in the kitchen and talked about shit.
IT WAS GREAT FUN.

HAVE A FABULOUS 2008, YA'LL :]

;I followed a rabbit
through rows of mermaids
entwined shrubbery!

;Its the last day of 2007!



-this year led me through really fast.
like ZOOOOOM ZOOOOM and its the end.
i remember starting off with the thought of
no more Secondary school life, the thought
that the O Levels were done over with,
and the thought of what my results were,
and which school i was going to be in!

And so, i chose Lasalle, the school which
made me spend approximately 9months
of doing, well, NOTHING.
okay i did work for like 2months,
-the job that i nearly quit on the first day :]

WELL,
wonder what 2008 will be like for me,
'A stressful year of semester2, probably?
'A struggling year through mental problems? geez just kidding.
'A new year of hope, happiness and ..whatever?
'A year with better friendships, relationships and what not?
OR
'Another same year filled with fries, chips, chocolates and candies!

Let me end this last day with a little of my camwhoring! LOVE YA'LL :]

;I followed a rabbit
through rows of mermaids
entwined shrubbery!

Your fingertips across my skin, 
The palm trees swaying in the wind
Images,
You sang me spanish lullabies, 
The sweetest sadness in your eyes 
Clever trick,

I'd never want to see you unhappy, 
I thought you'd want the same for me 

Goodbye my almost lover, 
Goodbye my hopeless dream, 
I'm trying not to think about you. 
Can't you just let me be? 
So long my luckless romance,
My back is turned on you,
I should have known you'd bring me heartache, 
Almost lovers always do.

We walked along a crowded street,
You took my hand and danced with me
Images,
And when you left you kissed my lips, 
You told me you would never, 
Ever forget these images, no. 

I'd never want to see you unhappy,
I thought you'd want the same for me 

I cannot go to the ocean, 
I cannot drive the streets at night, 
I cannot wake up in the morning, 
Without you on my mind, 
So you're gone and i'm haunted 
and i'll bet you are just fine, 
Did i make it that easy, 
to walk right in and out 
of my life? 

;I followed a rabbit
through rows of mermaids
entwined shrubbery!

;Sometimes i wonder to myself,
am i even a good friend, at all.
or am i even a friend.

Am i always neglecting my friends?
Am i?

My friendship with friends never seem to last forever.
Is it just me? or maybe its also the other companion.
I try to find time to have a conversation with him/her
but it always end up with nothing.

Maybe im just not type of person with long friendships.
Maybe, Probably, Or its just my luck.
Im the type who just have new friends when we
go to a new environment.
Its not a bad thing, afterall.

;I followed a rabbit
through rows of mermaids
entwined shrubbery!

;Well, its four in the morning now and i gotta get ready and head out to the airport at 6am.
its just a short one week trip to Hongkong but im gonna miss all my loved ones so so dearly this time especially.

1. MOM, im gonna miss you like hotcakes! [now i feel like eating hotcakes] This week you'll
be lonely and on 17th, youre gonna be home ALONE, literally, other than the maid.
Its really frustrating at times of how your life kinda go round your work a little too much that you neglect time for yourself to rest and go for a short holiday.
Please please, i beg you to takecare of yourself when Felicia and i are not around okaay. Im sorray ive been neglecting you ever since ive been going to my friend's house everyday. But i wanna tell you that i do miss you so and will never forget you in every bit of my life. Please remember to have your three meals everyday and i brought home the dvds like No Reservations to keep you company okay, this is the most i can do. Go look for Aunty Maria or so if youre ever feeling bored okay. We'll message you when we reach and i'll update you on whatever we are doing there alrights. And msg us if you want anything or let us know how youre doing as well okaay. I'll MISS YOU SO SO SO MUCH, MOM. I LOVE YOU! :]

2. Burlington #0707! You guys have been my source of fun for these months and leaving you guys for a week is kinda tough after seeing you guys everyday. Im gonna miss every single one of you like BANANA PIES! :] I'll try to get presents for all of you okaay. Eeeks i can believe ive been seeing you guys everyday and now i cant see you guys for a week. Jellydear, Ottobaby, Graciesweetie, BigmamaBrina, BitchyKansie, SmellyMel, StupidFlamingo, FaiFairul, KhaiKhai, JonnyJonJon, HannyHanHan..hope i didnt leave any one of you out! Whooops there are just too many of us.hahahas :] I'll msg you guys when im back alrights. Please takecare of one another yeahh. I'll so so miss you guys man. How you guys scream and shout like mad monkays. I'll be back sooooon. I'll MISS ALL OF YOU! :] *big hugg.

;im lying here in the little lighted guys room with my feet in the air, laptop shining right in my face, drinking my finishing aloevera drink spoon by spoon and out the window, right in front of me is that huge black school of mine with cut out rectangle window holes that plunge me down with the thought of how much work i have yet to do! DAMN IT YOU BITCH.

And outside at the living room with the song of HeroHeroine blasting from the Ihome sits my boyfriend and my new girlfriend ive knew since Halloween whose boyfriend's the bestfriend of my boyfriend.How typical life gets.
and im here typing shit loads of crap as..i just wanna type something because the sound of my fingernails against the mac keyboard actually pirks me up a bit :] blaah blaah and blaaaah..

;Well, ive havent been blogging for ages!and there arent currently any photos of events to be posted, therefore my blog has been like a complete blank.

THE HOLIDAYS ARE IN NOW!
yeap, ive been bunking at my friend's place for couple of weeks already and it has been lots of fun!
those sleepless nights were a torture and thank goodness theyre over!my results are a dread.
having two retrievals is a horror and yeah, looks the holidays gotta be filled with work too, SUCKY.
The days spent at Burlington Square #07-07 have been great and memorable ones.

;IM REALLY HAPPY THAT YOURE NOT LEAVING, GRACIE!
and so, we can all now have more fun times together :]
its really amusing how we all got together and started staying over one by one and building up stronger bonds with each other!

..im tired, imma go sleep now.
and.. MY BOYFRIEND'S HOT & SEXY.
AND HE POOPS ICE CUBES AND I LOVE HIM LOTS :]