;FUCK ME FOR FUCKING UP BOTH HANDS.
im sorry baby.



-but i honestly dont regret.

;LET ME GO! LET ME GO! LET ME GO! LET ME GO! LET ME GO! LET ME GO! LET ME GO! LET ME GO! LET ME GO! LET ME GO! LET ME GO! LET ME GO! LET ME GO! LET ME GO! LET ME GO! LET ME GO! LET ME GO! LET ME GO! LET ME GOOOOOO!

Alicia, don't cry, I know
[You're trying your hardest]
And the hardest part is letting go
Of the nights we shared
Ocala is calling and you know it's haunting
But compared to your eyes, nothing shines quite as bright
And when we look to the sky, its not mine, but i want it so

Let's not pretend like you're alone tonight
(I know he's there)
You're probably hanging out and making eyes
(while across the room, he stares)
I bet he gets the nerve to walk the floor
And ask my girl to dance, and she'll say yes

Because these words are never easier for me to say
Or her to second guess
But I guess
That I can live without you but
Without you I'll be miserable at best

You're all [that] I hoped I'd find
In every single way
And everything I would give
Is everything you couldn't take
Cause nothing feels like home, you're a thousand miles away
And the hardest part of living
Is just taking breaths to stay

Because I know I'm good for something
I just haven't found it yet
But I need it

And this will be the first time in a week
That I'll talk to you
And I can't speak
Been [three whole days since I've had sleep]
Because I dream of [her] lips on your cheek
And I got the point that I should leave you alone
But we both know that [I'm not that strong]
And I miss the lips that made me fly

-kill me, somebody.
let me fly, fly high.

-

;sometimes i really dont know what im doing.
i feel so lost, & like so blur & stuff.
it sucks when im like this.

its like i never know what im doing.
& gosh it aint funny at all mann.

im so tired, 6am, gosh!
alrights, peace out.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANG GUANGREN, you bitch.

-imissyou,
which sucks.

;HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY GRACIEBABY!
youre 18 now hunn, no big deal to youu though.
but anyways, i hope you love the present!
& my stupid card for youu, hahah ILY BABYGIRL.

too bad the photos taken with you are in your cam! :[




;i just wanna drink my sorrows away baby.
i need someone here with me, to hold my hand.
i yearn for someone's touch, someone's love.
so much that i missed that i cant even remember.

;HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY MUHD BABY!

gosh my first legal night of clubbing, at Zouk, Phuture.
to celebrate gren's advance birthdayy, hahaha.
fucking bastard got dead drunk mann, funny shit!

anyways, the night was okay.
met Gene & Leo, my hairdressers, tsk!
& also Simon, & yeahh heehee interesting.
Music was hella boring mann, like "Dont Speak"??
& "Girlfriend", peww-ewww.

Hopefully next time it'll be better.
nights yall, i lost like 18bucks to the air..

;i am so fucking tired.
yeah i know ive been saying this line for so long already.
but its true, i havent been sleeping much, its only a few
hours a time. its so hard to go on like this, i dont wanna
end up having dark circles man. it aint cool.

school has been so stressful, i wanna cry.
im really trying to catch up as much as i can but
theres always some distraction going on, sighh sucky.
but seriously thanks to you too, for the encouragement
throughout. youve been the one tryna pull me across the
sinking ocean. thankyou. i dont wanna fail again, it
seriously is not fun okay, you know how it feels, hahaha

we're gonna work hard together, but i bet you'll definitely
pass, you hardworking freak!
its already 4am now, school starts in 5hours.
i gotta wake up in 4hours time. not cool not cool.
super sleppy, & ive not finished my work.
imma prepare to be killed tmr.
hand's turning purple! :[

You might not agree with a close friend,
but you need to respect their opinions.

"Your healthy ambition is driving
your personal life right now -- set some big goals."

;HAPPY BIRTHDAY
TO ME!
im finally eighteeeeeen.

;I am so so so so so so damn lethargic mann.
Im about to die, collapse, faint, & start snoring on the floor.
Havent been sleeping much these days, sigh.
School is so stressful, its not funn at all, not fun!

I dont know what to do no more.
I feel so lost right now.
Everything's gonna be a rush as usual.

SNORE SNORE.

'lets get this party started.

;i admit im stupid for fucking up my hand.
im sorry to hurt those who cared about me.
im sorry to hurt you guys when i hurt myself.
im stupid.



you guys are my strength.

i love you guys millions.