;HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY, FLAMINGO!!

and HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY, ANDY!! :]

;Went for Dahlia's class with Diana.had to do some
experiments about COLLECTING THE SUN.it was stupid but
pretty interesting.hahas we both came up with stupid idea of
putting paper under the sun but realised that Dahlia was saying
that it would take months for the sun to change the color of the paper!
Diana was hungry so we secretly bought Bk to eat during class :]

After school went to meet Sab at Fongseng. We've finally met!!, after so long.
i missed you, babe.heehees it was great to just sit there and talk about our life.
Seems like shes having fun and stuff and yeah, it was really great.
Gonna meet her again on Monday night for dinner!
Went to ArtFriend after that to buy more white paper materials for
the White Project for ThreeDee.

Stayed up the whole night to actually do the hat but i did halfway
and went to sleep, kept waking up then going back to sleep.
Went to Fongseng with Chin at like 3am or something.
My hat looked so so funny please! GEEZ.

R.I.P
BOU BOU
31.01.2008

;HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY, NIZAM ZAM!! :]

-couldnt celebrate nizam's birthday to day cause he didnt bookout.
Had photography class today and we had the chance to use an SLR! ive been waiting so
long for this day to come.hahas but i didnt know using this stupid large heavy cam was
so difficult.had to learn about aperture, shutter, and so many more.it really blurs me out
completely.Guess ive got so much more to learn before buying it.geez!and what really
put me off was the terribly hot hot weather outside.gosh i could have just died.
I HATE YOU, SUN. (well, ive never liked you before anyways) :]

I got frustrated not being able to take nice photos and shit.got pissed with him too
which put him off. Went to eat at wetmarket with Flaming, Bree and Jellydear after class.
We had a long talk again when we went back home.goodness this will never end!
These stuff has been making me really stressful and really down these few days/weeks.
And not only do i suffer on my own but ive been putting my anger on him and
im really sorray, baby. I get pissed at every little thing he does and of course he doesnt
like it too. Im just stupid, stupid.I trust him, definitly but i have to overcome the thoughts
thats running through my mind as well. I dont know where to go, which side to head to.
Im really confuse bout everything. I keep blaming myself but i dont know if thats what
i should be doing. ;DUMBFOUNDED.

I really thank you for staying by me for all this time, baby. I appreciate it alot.
Im sorray if ive been treating you unreasonably these days. The things are just really
getting to me, im trying to avoid but i cant. Its right in front of me. But i want you to
know i still love you and will always do. I know you have alot of problems going on
as well for yourself and i hardly know them but i know youre not feeling very well too.
Just know that i'll be there for you too. ILY, OTTO GAN PAYCHIN.

;Im back home now, still trying to recover from being sick and the worse for a talkative
person is for one to be losing one's voice. My voice has been sounding like im totally
out of tune which is totally not good at all. Its sickening.
I cant shout, i can hardly talk. PEE-EEEEEEW.

After school i met Sab outside, surprisingly. Man, i missed her so much. We used to
talk about any crap we could think about and our lives and all. To think how long
we've not met, sighh. Im gonna meet her soon before heading to Phuket and prolly
this meeting will try bring us closer together again. Takecare babe! :]

Went back to #0707 and Bree and Flaming were going to the wetmarket so Chin went
to help get me food from there as well. Soon at home, Jelly wanted to go for a swim
but damn, i cant go as im still sick.sigh so Fai went down with her to use the lappy
while Gracie and i fell asleep upstairs. Chin came back soon after but i was still too
tired to go out so he let me sleep for another few mins and by then Bree and Flaming
came back home.

When i finally decided to go out and eat, Jelly decided to head for a nap..and so went
Flaming, Gracie too, again. Hakim came over as well. But left to go back home with
Fai not long after.Chin went to lie down too but end up sleeping. Only Bree and i were
left awake. I wanted to go to the stairs to spray fixative on my charcoal works but went
to look at the stairs, i totally freaked out, it was so dark and scaaaary! So decided to
just spray it outside the door.Christelle and Bunny came over but left after like 10mins?
And Bree came outside to join me during their 10mins as the couple were quarelling
inside.GEEZ! over the iTouch.

They left and Bree and i just stayed outside and talked for the time i was doing my work.
It was nice and relaxing just chilling outside there talking about stuff. I wanted to talk
to her bout stuff making me uber paranoid everyday but i didnt. Dont know why. Maybe
it was that stupid big ant that distracted me. Stupid long life ant, couldnt die by fixative.
Lucky Bree killed it with some plant i tore.heeees damn dumb. Went home after that
cause apparently sis had been calling me for 15times on my phone but i didnt know.
DAMNS! :]

;Today never felt any better, am still having bad sore throat, bad coughs and flu.
Being sick this way is the most horrible thing ever. Felt hot and feverish but lucky
there aint no fever.

The whole day was spent in the bed for me, watching television. I felt as if i was dying.
My body ached and i couldnt take it, i was just literally to weak. Hopefully i'll get well
soon again! :]

and adding..

HAPPY 44TH WEDDING ANNIVERSAY,
GRANDPA AND GRANDMA! :]

;Woke up with a uber bad ass cough, sore throat and flu.
What retribution, you may think. I hate being sick!
Its making me weaker, making me more tired.
And i even had a bad NOSE BLEED due to blowing my nose too hard.
Sigh, what a way to start my Saturday.

Went to Grandparents' Graduation after that. They attended a course for senior citizens
to learn how to enjoy their golden age.hahas! geez it was awfully boring but
seeing my grandparents having their graduation even with their MotarBoard is so cute!
Im glad that they're having their graduation with smiles and having their children and

grandchildren there to support them, even though their graduation is..a little late in age.

;grandma waving in enthusiasm. I LOVE YOU, GRANDMA & GRANDPA!

After their graduation, went to see my new house! Well the room's smaller but at least
its just right for the three of us and the view's great with the swimming pool right in front.
Im eager to move in there but theres yet for renovation and stuff.
Went for dinner at 7th Storey Steamboat. and even before eating, i couldnt take it but ran to the
toilet and bleaaaah puked. ewwww! my throat and cough's really really bad.

Was supposed to go to Amanda's birthday party at siglap but im afriad im gonng puke there or something so
head over and wished her but had to go soon after. Sorray, amanda! :] Hope i'll get well soon :[

;Late for twodee, damns.
All alone, until flaming came, one hour after.
Twodee's one of the best classes, prolly because its ChinKang.

Went to #0707 after that, Gracie still asleep.
Lay next to her and ended up falling asleep. Was too damn lethargic.
Kept waking up to see the time for tutorial. Diana kept calling.
Wondered if i should go over but i was really too tired.
In the end decided not to and head back to dreamland.
Diana called, poor girl got f*cked up AGAIN. Tutorial ended
earlier and made her waste effort on traveling all the way from her house
to school..and back again. Chin came over..when he was supposed to go to
school at 9am, it was already 2pm by then. HMPPFF.

We then went to Fareast to get Mel's anniversary's present. The whole trip was gloomy
for me after prolly a misunderstanding at home but i couldnt stand it anymore.
Its hard for me to be in this relationship if this goes on. Im standing on a thin rope, and
due to my bad bad balancing, i may fall off to my death in any second on time.

Im sorray baby if i made you feel how i felt. Its just really hard for me. Im too weak to take
all this stressfulness. I want to stand strong, be strong but i keep falling, everytime.
You said that we can do this together, i promised you but seriously i dont know if i can.
Your drop of tear for me weakened me alot when i saw your face. Im afraid, very afraid, very very afraid.
And i know in this situation, God's help is useless.HMM..

;Photography - Pinhole Camera.
My tin didnt quite work out right, guess the safety pin hole had been poked to big.
Had to use Diana's in the end, well everyone did. Her tin was the best, as usual.
I ended up using lots of photograph sheet/paper thingy/whatever you call that.
And ended up being frustrated over it..headed over to simlim for lunch.
We all went for a swim later in the night and i felt so good, having to spend more time
With them is joyful. Maybe its not the same as before but im contented with this.

Went over to Terminal3 at midnight and spend the night there. Its really relaxing and
chilly there and great to do work there.
Went to Bree's house later on and her room is so pink! -flamingo pink to be exact.
Her photos taken before shocked me, to think how different she looked but still having
her gorgeous features. So amazing and black hair made her look cool.
We took a nap there and i had to use her bed, felt so bad where they had to squeeze in
her mom's bed, all stupid flamingo's fault.lazy asshole.


Home Sweet Home for dinner.

;Chin was supposed to wake up early to meet me at 10am but apparently he woke up late
and we had to meet an hour later. Went to wet market for breakfast with him and flaming.
im seriously starting to like wet market's cheap food but im still hating the wet, disgusting,
dirty, non-airconditioned environment there.yeah im uber fussy, i know that :]

Went for threedee class and diana came. We, group of four had to discuss on our joint project.
laughing like crazy over the "cockroach".but i think we're not gonna do it eventually..

;missed damn lecture again, not surprising.
late for ppd, how sweet. -wasnt paying much attention.

saw rome out the window at smoking area with shane and josh.messaged him and saw him stupidly
trying to look out for me.hahahas.
what a day.

; eles dizem que me modifiquei.
realmente quero saber how.is ele porque dont passam mais
tempo com eles mais mas só o meu namorado? Sou triste.
o ódio de fodendo este situation.talking para ela ou em msn é sempre
algo feliz para mim mas no momento sempre me sinto como se ela faz
eles não querem dizer comigo em all.i'm assim paranoid.i desejo o que as coisas fazem
esteja até novamente como before.god, por favor ajude-me a resolver esta situação.

;yesterday's Drawing Development class was postponed.
and so is today's 2D class. HOW GREAT!

;MAMEE'S AWESOME.

;OOOOOOH?

;Alee & Otto-chan :]

;okaaaay, i look sick.

;I followed a rabbit
through rows of mermaids
entwined shrubbery!

UH HUH, like Jellydear, ive got my Smiley piercing done too :]
and it did hurt like itsy-bitsy-pie-roll!
man, am i not gonna ever get a piercing done with a needle.
and i will never forget Han's hands squashing my face :]

;Thanks baby for the piercing.

;I followed a rabbit
through rows of mermaids
entwined shrubbery!

;I HAVE CHANGED MY HAIRSTYLE!





;RAAAAH but jellydear's right, it does
look kinda EMOOOOOOOO.

but i aint emo alrights.
im one of a hell happy kickass girl!

;and here comes the sad part,
my hairstylist said that the RED's
not gonna last long, well as usual,
so i guess im gonna have to..
WASH MY HAIR ONCE EVERY 3-4 DAYS! :]


;The END.

;I followed a rabbit
through rows of mermaids
entwined shrubbery!

;HAPPY NEW YEAR!

'Fai and G's performance was AWESOME.
All of us didnt want to go home so ended up heading to Starbucks at Liat Towers.
Orchard Road felt like 8pm at 4am on 1st January '08!

'Waited for the first bus at FarEast and made our way home.
Ended up sleeping at about 10am when we reached as Flamingo, Khai,
Otto and I camped in the kitchen and talked about shit.
IT WAS GREAT FUN.

HAVE A FABULOUS 2008, YA'LL :]

;I followed a rabbit
through rows of mermaids
entwined shrubbery!