;its 12:05am, 25th November '08.

you've finally turned nineteen. oh well, how time flies.
a year ago, we just recently got together & everything
was so special. If im not wrong, i didnt even got you
anything for your last 18th birthday, im sorryyy.
-maybe just a birthday kiss.

I remember telling myself, after getting you the
tattoo machine for our 2nd month, i was gonna get
you the whole set of tattoo inks, needles, & whatever
shit etc. for your birthday. hahh but oh well, we even
hardly meet no more, i even wonder if you do remember
this friend of yours here! but whatever it is, i just wanna
wish you.. HAPPPPYYY BIRTHDAYY, me special someone.

Like a cherry tree bloomed I can feel the fragrance around A face full of energy and life always radiating happiness with contagious grin beaming from within I salute your unconquerable spirit and persistent determination I admire in you the internal strength and wisdom I treasure your uniqueness the caring heart and adorable smile At times, I wonder how would I say how much you mean to me and how much you have given me the support, encouragement With each additional candle on the cake I contemplate once again how privileged I've been to have you in my life Thank you my dearest for making my life brighter and sweet you are a gift of tranquility in my life It's your birthday and I know, you must be feeling happy today oh well, I may be far from you thousands of miles away from your birthday cake but, close your eyes and look deep down your feelings I am there clapping singing your birthday song holding you in embrace dancing with shear joy so, don't ever think of my absence I'm there with you at every breath of life Happy Birthday, sweetheart.

;2D Review on fridaaayy, goodness.
school is such a killer! :[ i've gotta rush
like a mad ass man, dont wanna fail.

final, final, what to do!

sighhh i wanna get this over & done with.
get wait to get my <3

-

Reborn and shivering
Spat out on new terrain
Unsure, unkind, insane
This faint and shaken hour

Day one, day one
Start over again
Step one, step one
I'm barely making sense
For now I'm faking it
'Til I'm psuedo-making it
From scratch, begin again
But this time I as "I"
And not as "we"

Gun-shy and shivering
Tear it without a hand
Feign brave but still intent
Little and hardly here

~

Eyes wet,
Toward wide open freight
If God is taking bias,
I pray he wants to lose

Day one, day one
Start over again
Step one, step one
I'm barely making sense
For now I'm faking it
'Til I'm psuedo-making it
From scratch, begin again
But this time I as "I"
And not as "we"

;SO MAD THAT
I CAN FAAAAART
FIRE BOMBS!!! :O

-hahahahahah
bullshit crap talk.

;It'll be a year today.
but today's just a normal dayy,
i'll never forget those days..

If I were a boy
Even just for a day
I’d roll out of bed in the morning
And throw on what I wanted and go
Drink beer with the guys
And chase after girls
I’d kick it with who I wanted
And I’d never get confronted for it
Because they’d stick up for me

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I’d be a better man
I’d listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he’s taken you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

If I were a boy
I would turn off my phone
Tell everyone its broken
So they think
that I was sleeping alone
I’d put myself first
And make the rules as I go
Cause I know that she’d be faithful
Waiting for me to come home (to come home)

"

It’s a little too late for you to come back
Say its just a mistake
Think I forgive you like that
If you thought I would wait for you
You thought wrong

But you're just a boy
You don’t understand (yea you don’t understand)
How it feels to love a girl
Someday you’ll wish you were a better man
You don’t listen to her
You don’t care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
Cause you've taken her for granted
And everything you had got destroyed
But you're just a boy…

;arghhhhhh fucking stress, im about to die!!
well not really, hee i think im seriously slacking
too much, & yeah STILL! Drawing Fundamentals
Review on tuesdayy, its already fucking sunday!
okokayy i gotta run, literally run & do my work, toodles :]

die lah, imu.
fuck the hell outta me! :[

;I've not met you nor seen you for days.
& when i got the news, i literally stoned.
Im really really am sorryyy to hear the news.
As a friend, I really cant do anything, but be
by your side, & be by my phone as well.

No matter what, im always gonna be here for you.
Remember that. Because thats what friends are for.
Youve been through too much, i know.
Im really sorry for your loss, I really am.

Please takecare of yourself, pal.
I dont want you end up falling ill. This is not the right time
to fall ill, you know it too. so please, takecare alrights.
Get alot of rest. &

I send my condolences, my pal.

Mother I ask for your love
I miss our travels and talks
I miss our times
All I ask is for us to be friends

Mother cradle me your baby
I am just asking for your kindness
I'm longing only for a peaceful time with you
All I'm asking is not to be pushed away

Mother I ask for your hugs
to mend my broken heart
caused by my love
All I'm asking for is to be embrace

Mother I say to you
give me your time so I can ask
questions I have been holding for years

Mother I ask for your kisses
soft as a dove
I ask you to help me grow

Mother I ask for your attention
Just this once
I only ask for your time

Mother I ask for a part in your heart
Not to be pushed off

Mother don't give me your anger
I don't want your silence
Mother I want your smile

Mother I wish
I wish for your stories
not our problems
I wish for us
I wish for you

;WOAHHHH its 7am & im actually still awake doing work.
but apollo's distracting me with msn!!! hahah fuckerr.
& flamingo, the fool's out for more lung cancer.

pfffttt, im actually proud, ive not smoked for some time
alreadyyy, which is awesome :]

;Remember how we all used to be so close.
like a family of siblings, somehow.
but now its all gone, but we still have to move on.
NO MATTER WHAT, LIFE GOES ON :]

theres always changes in life, we just have to accept it.
Someday, i'll wait for that very dayy!


;finally i got to wear my shirt :]

;hello! why, im surprised im still up right now, at 430am.
hah the night before's 2hours sleep & yesterday's 2hours
afternoon nap at Grace's did help a lil. sighh this sucks.

school has been taking my sleeeep away! now i cant grow taller :[
& my face's condition's bad too, fucked up. due to period, &
especially the stupid sleepless nights. fuck you!

anyways after Assessment, which is like in 2 & 1/2 weeks,
im gonna sleep AS MUCH AS I CAN, "i dont give a shit" -chris.
hahaha & michael called me!! michael called me!! *ahem.

-back to work.
<3 my SPECIAL friend.


goodnights.

;i somehow miss you.

;Got the tickets but cant make it to Singapore Tattoo Convention
on January 9th!! This fucking suckkks, aint fair man! POOOOOF-